Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Do you ever have days?

That you just feel like your world is coming down around you?

That something is about to happen that is going to knock you in the stomach and you will never be the same again?

That you have a million and one things to do, but don't know where to start?

That you wish you could run away from your life? Well, a small part of it that gets in the way of the great parts of your life.

Where you wonder if you will ever be good enough? Not good enough for someone else, but good enough that you are happy with yourself?

Today, I think, is one of those days for me. I have gone back and forth all day long trying to figure out what in the world is wrong with me. It's been one of those funny feelings. Thought maybe it's because it's the end of the month and all in all, it hasn't been a great one. I mean, I just made two "sales" on Etsy, but not for anything that I created. Some supplies really. And one hasn't made the payment yet.

Or maybe it had to do with the fact that it's Tuesday and Tony is home. Don't get me wrong by that statement. I love my husband, but Mondays are his day off and he wasn't able to be off yesterday, so today is his day off. I am a big creature of habit (hense the reason that my first marriage lasted as long as it did, lol).

Or maybe it's the fact that try as I may, my youngest daughter refuses to go potty both ways where she should. She has no problems staying dry, let's put it that way. lol

At any rate, I hope that I am not alone in these feelings and I pray that nothing bad is about to happen.

Now the big kids are home from school, so maybe that will help "lighten" my feelings. Of course, the hubby telling me that maybe we should go out to dinner tonight MIGHT have helped a little too. Sometimes cooking can be overrated. lol


Devon said...

Honey, I'm sorry you're feeling down. We are sending hugs and giggles to you!!

Jazzy Jemz said...

I hope your day got better and you woke up Weds and everything crappy from the day before was gone!

Dlsarmywife said...

I have so definitely had days like that! I hope you are feeling better today, if not, take heart...things will brighten up soon. :-)